Thursday, October 28, 2010

nueve-cinco

Its 71 degrees exactly
I'm not use to the consistency
my eyes are burning as red as christmas
can eyes blister? cause mine feel like their going to pop

I'm being efficient and pro-active
contributing to society
but insides want to be out
want to yell and scream
this is me grown up
this is me 9-5

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

hi bob

On the regular I'm enticed to send you a little something, but then i go over the last email you sent me. Telling me how happy you are, how everything is going so well for you in your new relationship, how things have changed and how i need to look into my mean ways. It almost makes me want to vomit. Maybe I'm one of those people that's disgusted by other people's happiness because mine keeps eluding me. What i want is for you to curb your enthusiasm and come save me from this.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

breathe

Its a weird feeling waking up and your sheets sticking to your bare legs and chest. Its hard to breath now in January. I can only imagine how bad it's going to get in April. I've been looking into getting a dehumidifier but they're too expensive so i let the air come in from outside. Contrary to what you might think. I like waking in my own sweat. I like to think that im burning some calories as i sleep and the sweat is the evidence.
There's a smell that lingers every once in a while if i don't let the northeast wind in. I don't notice to much when its just me but when i have someone here I can smell the stench just as i wake. Its not the good manly smell that i like to so weirdly stick my nose into when someone good is gone, but its a basket of dirty laundry in the corner kind of stench.
Every time i regret it, seems good the night before but the lingering stench in the morning reminds me to open the window and see you out.